I am obsessed with making lists. In my kitchen I have an oversized white board, a corresponding cork board and now a matching erasable calendar. Each are covered with lists of what needs to be done and when and sometimes how.
Throughout my career I prided myself on the ability to multi-task and on my exceptional organizational skills. All due to the glorious To Do List. I even have such lists for my husband and son, although they apparently do not get the joy and fulfilled that I get from crossing something off that list.
Yesterday i started to think my old friend the To Do List is becoming a crutch. I started spinning out of control with everything that needs to be done and how little time is available. Ever time I started a task, I was distracted with another and frankly nothing was being accomplished. So I went to my trusty white board, chose a task and finished it! Oh the joy of crossing off an action item.
Now however I am concerned that the list is controlling me. I am starting to believe that I am no longer able to think without a list created telling me what I am supposed to be thinking about. Is this a huge crutch that now prevents me from being spontaneous? And how about the severe depression experienced when I am unable to cross anything off the list?
Oh I know, I will create a list on how to ease myself off the list and learn again how to live in the moment.
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
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