What Goes Around Comes Around

Sometimes there are things you do that you are not so very proud of.  It may seem fine at the moment but time seems to darken those reflections and maybe experience shows how naive you were.

It hit me in the face recently. You see I was evaluated strictly on what I look like.  So what it happens all the time right?  Well its not so great when that evaluation does not work in your favor.

When I was starting out as an EDS systems analyst, I worked for General  Motors.  I was young, ambitious and nothing would get in my way to success.  Constantly working, I knew my job and was really good at it.  I also knew what it took to get  noticed.  Young girl, man's world.  So every time I had a meeting with the GM executives, I put together a certain look (maybe a shorter skirt, higher heels, tighter sweater).  Pitiful right?  But it did get me noticed so they had to listen to me.  At the time, I thought I was using all tools available.

Age seems to have taken away some of those tools and now I am disgusted that I was "that girl".  You should be evaluated on the criteria necessary to get a job done, not on the aesthetics you provide.  You would think that experience and insight could top beauty and youth.  It cannot.

So karma hits.  My apologies to the women who were brighter than I was and more deserving of some of the positions I held.  Relish in my recent dose of reality.